Young Inside

NO

this is not a post about me

being vain about how young i look.

hahahaha well maybe a bit :P

it's a post about how i am

as a human being.

as a girl

as a daughter

as a friend

as a student

as a lover

(yes, i am a lover. deal with it.
i have a boyfriend. be jealous :3)

and how hard it is to be a good person

when it's too hard to behave my age

i am EIGHTEEN this year

yes, a freakin eighteen lady

well, i have always waited

to be lapan belas.

no longer budak bawah umur.

can already watch eighteen movies

without worrying about getting caught

hahaha lol.

but when i masuk asasi,
i behaved like i always do in form 5
but the teachers don't like it
they say i'm too immature
i need to grow up
but in form five they told me i'm mature for my age
i dont understand how ONE year difference
brings so much growing up
okay sir, i'll try to grow up
-..-

i am kidding
i dont wanna grow up!
#full stop#

and yesterday hanisah told me to be mature.
okay i know gaduh buat muka with junior mcm budak2
but i cant help it
thats what i do.
that is how i always behaved
please don't make me act like who i am not
this is my way of living
i like to fool around
i like to be childish
i hate taking things seriously
if you don't like it, leave

and semalam ada merajuk with nemo sekejap
:3 yes, tau. mengada
biar lah. nak manja :D
but i think i should not do it that often
he might get sick of it
macam budak2 kan?
haihh but again
i cant change. well, maybe not yet.
sorry syg. i'll try not to be budak2 :)

but if you're fine with it,
READ THIS:

i am eighteen. but i have a mental aged TEN
beware of excessive fooling, playing, teasing
joking at serious times
and sometimes, maybe
blurting of unreal stupid thoughts
also be prepared to get confused
hahah :D

just gimme some time
i'll try to be more mature
like an eighteen years old
in you guys punya definition -..-

but if i failed
please understand
that is how i get a life :3