Presence

he was worried

that i didn't eat for the week

i was worried that he couldn't eat

as much as he wants for the week

but i told him

it's a sacrifice we had to make

just so that we can meet

and spend a day together

and on the night before we planned to meet

we fought

thanks to my insecurities

thanks to my stupidity

thanks to my keras kepala

and we make up again early that morning

thanks to his tolerance

thanks to his patience

thanks to him, being him :)

and when we finally meet

when i felt his presence so close to me

it was a relief

there nothing more calming

than to know your significance is right next to you

than to know he is there to make you smile

than to know he is with you for the whole day

just to you

just for you

we talked, we walked together

we went to the movies, we eat. a lot :)

*highlight* WE HAD ICECREAM :P

and for the first time

i felt really happy

when i looked into someone's eyes

staring at his face, his eyes

gave me complete solace

poured me with happiness

but deep down inside

i am somehow sad, and scared

because i know it will only last for the day

i am gonna have to leave him soon

but i brushed the thoughts away

and cherish the minutes we have left,

so that it'll give me comfort when we were separated

and when the time comes

when we had to go

we had to walk away from each other

i felt so sad

i missed him even though we just met

i missed him already

even if he is still in front of me

when we say good bye

i was about to cry

but i held it in

and inhaled his scent

hoping it would stay with me

when he is no longer there

and when he's gone

gone from where i can see him

gone from where i can sense his presence

i cried out

longing for him to come back

i miss him

i miss him

i miss him

even now i still miss him

sayang,

thanks for the day

you made it nice, you made it perfect

i miss you.

i miss you a lot

till next time.

i love you <3

p.s; the sacrifices were worth it :)