I. DON'T. LIKE. YOU. enuff said.

little creature,

that appear in my life.

just to make me more miserable.

how did you manage to be so

DISGUSTING?

yes, you.

AZREE SHAARI =.="

Little Friend

i barely know you.

but i feel that we have known each other

since forever.

hahahha :)

i dont know what to say.

just that.

i think i might have started to love you.

as a friend, okay?

thanks for semalam :D

AIMAN FITRY KHAIRUL ANNUAR.

camtu kan your name? =.="

ENGLISH? :D

ada orang cakap, bila diorang tengok my pictures,

they thought i would be someone yang tak boleh cakap

in english, AT ALL!

what do you think?

hahahahaha :D

SPEAK NOW

talk to me.

that's all i ask from you.

we've been together since form one,

i hope you can open up.

talk to me.

tell me your problems,

tell me when you are hurt.

tell me when you are confused.

search for my shoulder when you wanna cry.

find me when you wanna spill.

tell. talk.

i am stupid,

i am weak.

i cannot tell when you are hurt,

i cannot tell when you are confused.

i didn't know what you expect,

and i am always afraid,

that i might disappoint you.

i am scared

that i might hurt you

when i am supposed to be the one

that lighten you up.

i am sorry for not being able to be

the friend you should have.

i might not be able to say the right things.

i might not be able to do the right things.

i didn't know how to.

you didn't like to look fragile.

i don't wanna make you feel that way,

even if i know you are.

i wanna give you all you want.

i don't wanna hurt you.

but i end up doing so.

i am sorry.

i love you, sister.

i really do :')

otak takde otak?

band bubar

kelab music ditubuhkan.

i lost my jawatan, presiden band

which is also my dream,

sebab?

we dont have uniforms??????

we are not fashion designers, stupid!!!!

enuff said :)

SHAFIQ FARHAN :D

nah! kau naksangat kan aku tulis pasal kau :)

okay, let me tell you about paksha :)

he's my junior,

one of the juniors that i would like to share anything.

one of the person that i can trust,

the only person that can make me annoyed,

and yet aku tak boleh marah kau =.="

hahaha :D

one of the person that knows i like HA :)

adik, thanks :)

for always smiling when you see me,

making weird jokes,

making me laugh, and smile.

understanding me,

being a friend when no one is beside me.

okaaaayyyyy, aku dah jiwang

whatever it is, kau ada dalam hidup aku,

so kau important.

okay,dah, bye :)

IT'S JUST SO HARD :(

sha, awin and me always cry. as it is just so hard.

we dont want it to be like this.

especially me.

ibu has been blaming me for their divorce,

making it harder for me

i wasn't my fault! i was six.

every raya we have to choose, papa or ibu?

celebrating raya either both sides are hard.

there was this one raya when we decided to celebrate with papa

we went back to mama's (step mom) hometown at perak.

first raya, the whole family went to a studio to take family photos.

we got there and my step aunt said,

"you three should wait first. let OUR family take pictures first."

yep, that made it obvious that we are not family.

even papa didnt say a thing.

so we went out with our brand new clothes,

with the hope that raya would be nice crushed,

go to 7ELEVEN, had slurpee and waited till the session ends.

then we went back to the house,

the "forgive-and-forget" session started.

AGAIN! she did it again.

"you three cannot call my husband ayah long, you are not his nieces."

confirmed, we are not family.

we are hurt, but we didn't show it

not wanting their raya become as bad as ours.

we went raya with ibu too.

thank goodness abi's (step dad) family accept us.

but, of course, there is a problem.

NENEK (papa's mom) 

she will make a fuss the whole raya!

even if we raya with her, or if we not.

when we went to her house, during first raya,

leaving ibu behind,

she was happy, but not satisfied.

she never let us wear the baju raya ibu made for us,

always asking us to hurry up when we are calling ibu.

when we went to ibu's,

she would cry , beg or something like that,

making us feel bad,

making it even harder.

as if it wasnt hard enough that we have to choose!

as if we didnt feel bad enough to see people celebrating with both of their parents,

but we are missing one.

we cried, among us, we cried.

inside, we are still crying.

GOD, stay with us,

make us strong.

AMIN~